Facing addictions head on

Today was a weird day. Did you have a weird Monday too? Well on the way to the train this morning at 5am I was tired of feeling like shit when I wake up and I started to think about what I did the previous day and the previous days that I’ve felt similar:

Diet Coke. You are killing me.

For my entire life, all 32 years of it I have been drinking Diet Coke everyday multiple times a day. In fact I would drink more Diet Coke than water everyday because I hate the flavor of water and I’m tired of peeing all the time when I drink tons of water.. but even Diet Coke is a diuretic so it would do the same thing!

Naturally I said, I’m done. Today I’m giving up Diet Coke entirely. If that wasn’t enough I then decided to include energy drinks (diet) and also include ALL fake sugar products to he banned effective immediately. Did I go too far? Maybe.

I wasn’t even having a manic moment this morning to trigger an All or Nothing reference.. I felt like I wanted to vomit this AM so naturally I associated it with my Diet Coke consumption. Because that makes so much since Mark. Or does it?

There have been in mind-numbing out there berating Diet Coke and it’s affects on the body. Most importantly Aspartame effect on the body. Diet Pepsi recently removed aspartame from their product and maintained the taste. Well that’s just great! But it’s not Diet Coke. I have a preference! Had a preference.

So it is now 5:03pm and I’m on the bus ride home and I managed to not drink anything Diet today and I stayed within my points today for WW but I am getting hangry fast! It’s a a process. Maybe I should have done Diet Coke for two weeks and then take out energy drinks (diet) but knowing me and my patterns that wouldn’t have been a good idea either because it would still be TOO MUCH for me to handle and my stresses would barrel out of control and would cause me to fall into a manic episode. Im not fortune telling either (which is another thought pattern in David Burns book) as by me indicating my future would be an assumption that I know may not be true.

As far as the Diet Coke consumption AND the diet products are gone. Now that I am blogging I am expecting my followers to hold me accountable. Ha no kidding. I’m sure you’ll hear about this a lot because like Alcohol, Diet Coke is an addiction.

I think about the science research they say about artificial sugars and aspartame in the body and as much as I don’t want to agree I have to. This shit is disgusting as to what it does to our bodies.

https://aspartame.mercola.com

All it takes is a google search for “aspartame” and if you’re feeling lucky just let Google fill in the rest of the prediction.. Aspartame..kills, depression, causes manic, causes schizophrenic episodes..etc all of it.

There are a bunch of other habits I’d like to get rid of now including:

Leaving the seat up

Going to bed by 9 every night

Waking up at 5am with no snoozes

Doing dishes

Hanging up my towel. (You’re welcome babe)

And many many other things that I can’t even think of.

Where does it all start?

Easy: Be removing Diet Coke from my life I am confident that it will give me a sense of power over my thoughts and what I put in my body. In addition I will look sexier, slimmer, and maybe my teeth will get whiter.

I don’t see any negative consequences yet?

Except for being an irritable bitch.

I know that I will be successful at removing this from my life once again. A few things are different this time that gives me better chances of being successful including:

Blogger

Being stable on medications

Not doing everything overnight

Follow Weight Watchers

All four of these are on my side and should not get in the way of me attaining what I want out of life. As I mentioned in earlier posts. I want to get my physique back. I’m tired of being overweight. Being overweight contributes heavily to my self esteem and mental health.

Everyday that I continue this journey of sobriety, and as I remove these substance battles from my life I will only improve greatly. There is no negative side effects with improving your life. I’m ready to change. I’m ready to feel good again. When I don’t feel sexy, I eat terribly and feel like a sloth in the mirror.

No more! Just Diet Coke no more, AND fake sugar products. If I just gave up Diet Coke and continued to drink fake sugar products I wouldn’t be improving my chances. If anything i would worsen my chances of remaining free from soda consumption. God I make it sound worse than giving up the sauce but I drank diet products 10x the amount of alcohol I drank.

If someone cut me, I’d bleed Diet Coke.

16 thoughts on “Facing addictions head on

  1. I used to be hooked on Diet Coke!!! I feel ya!!

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    1. It’s ridiciulously hard it’s stupid! What’s your secret? Mine is ibuprofen

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      1. It is so lame! It shouldn’t be so hard! I stopped years ago unless I break and just have a craving. That happens once in a while and I can stop at one Diet Coke. My secret was excedrin migraine strength. So sad isn’t it!

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  2. I used to drink Diet Coke all. The. Time. I don’t drink soda at all now. I wish you luck! 🌻

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    1. Oh Barb, I’m envious of your success! I’ve battled this for sooooo long.. I’ll take your luck! I’ll need it!

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  3. Diet coke is terrible. I still drink it but not every day. I got crazy headaches when I quit so if you get them too just know, it is not a brain tumor, it is just withdrawals.
    You are doing an amzing job! Plus, you are a cutie. Keep it up, doll. xxx

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    1. You’re so sweet Amber! Thank you for the positive support! Xxo

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      1. You are welcome gorgeous!

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  4. I’ve battled with alcohol and other. Whatever your vice may be… it’s never easy giving up something that you have used to fill a void for so long. Good luck. Flavored seltzer is fantastic !

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    1. Thank you! I’m just working on giving up smoking. It’s my biggest vice.

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      1. I hear that is one of the hardest things to get over. My hat is off to you, good luck !

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  5. Fun fact: Someone I worked with was/is addicted to Diet Coke. Not-so-fun-fact: They now have cancer. It was treated, and was removed, and they are okay, but if you’re looking for affirmation as to making the right decision, there’s a tidbit for ya!

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    1. Wow. I believe it! My mother always gives me crap for drinking Diet Coke for this exact reason. Until the FDA gets their shit together about this crap we won’t see an improvement.

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      1. In the meantime, since we can’t control the FDA, we can only control ourselves. Have you read The Body Book by Cameron Diaz?

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      2. Nope! Cameron’s Diaz…actress?? I didn’t know she wrote a book

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      3. Yes and it’s great for having a new respect for your body. It really helped me with healthy eating and exercising. I didn’t expect it to be so good but I recommend it to all my students who have body image issues and they love it.

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